Oh, so that’s real.

Welp…

Also symptomatic and weird: I feel guilty writing, even though it’s my full-time job now.I feel like I’m getting away with something, like I’m having more fun that I deserve. It’s hard to relax into the imagining because it’s too much fun.

– Me, a few weeks ago

… yeah, that guilt over “fun” goes away really quickly when you sign a contract and and have two deadlines at the same time. In a month and a half.

“Fun” becomes “oh my blue hell, I have to be so very good, so very fast.”

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